Okay, so I have a lot of things I need to write. Especially my requests. I need to finish the dang NewWorld and I need to start the sequel to my novel pretty soon. People are asking me if I've finished it and I'm just like: "Maybe...maybe not."
I have all the character bios and outlines ready and I know what I want to write and stuff, but gah, I just can't bring myself to get started. It goes into my conditional writer's block. Like I'm able to write some things, but not everything, especially the things I know I should be writing. I've been writing this story on the down low called This Beautiful Disaster. It was supposed to be a short story, but all y'all know I CANNOT write short stories. That's all I've been able to write aside from the occassional poetry. Anything else...nope. I can't do. So most of the time I'm at my desk feeling guilty for making people wait so long.
And it is absolutely not helping me that I bought a new game to distract me from writing even more. Guess what it is? It's fucking Sims. I used to play it when I was younger and when they were for the Ps2. I bought my recent pack for my laptop. It's a 3 in 1 kind of deal for $20. I got a freaking deal. I was going to get Aion originally, but the fact that Sims was having that deal, it called to me more. I've been playing that so much. I've made sims of my two main characters from This Beautiful Disaster. It's fun and boring at the same time, but so damn addicting!!! I am seriously entranced by the freaking game and I'm going crazy.
At this rate, I'll never finish anything.
Oh but aside from that, I wanna do something new. For me at least. I've been doodling every now and then, very rare, but I wanna doodle some more. For those of you who read my AfterWorld series stuff, have you ever had questions about the characters or for
the characters? I wanna do like a little Q & A thing for them. So if you have questions, shoot em at meh. I'm ready!
I wanna do that really bad for some reason, even though when I draw the little mini versions of the characters, they'll probably look crappy and total noob status, but hey, practice makes fucking perfect! And then again, I drew a wonderful freaking line art for a drawing for a friend of mine on here. I'm not saying who, but you will all find out eventually. If I ever get past the line art stage. I stop there because I think I'm shit at coloring and clothes. And you know I shouldn't really care since I'm a noob and should be okay with that, but I'm not!! I'm such a freaking perfectionist!!! If it doesn't look good, I will stop working on it or delete and forget about it.
So all in all, I have lots of shit to do, but I'm not doing it either because I lack proper motivation thus leading to massive procrastination or I get randomly busy. Plus, my sleeping schedule is way off. I go to sleep at like 5 or 6 am and then wake up at 11:30am or later sometimes. I'm trying to get it normal again. I'm gradually waking up earlier so that I'll be really tired and go to sleep earlier. Plus, I feel like I can get more done if I wake up earlier. But that doesn't make me a morning person though. I'm in zombie mode most of my morning, all slow and groggy. So yeah there's that.
Oh and I've been wondering about who people think about. I think that everyone has a person or very small set of people that they constantly think about day after day or every other. So I'm just curious who people think about you know? Maybe it's someone they really care about and love, like family or their best friend. Significant other, maybe? Crush? I don't know. I've always been interested in stuff like that. So please do share with me if you're willing. I'd love to hear about it.
Anyway, that's all I have for now. Kinda same stuff haha.
Thanks for reading! Stay awesome everybody!